I'm Still Waiting


I get asked “how are you able to be so transparent”.  It’s a really good and valid question.  Honestly, it hasn’t always been that way and at times I still experience moments of shame and embarrassment.  I can think to a time where I would only share the good news stories and experiences in my life.  Then I felt God tugging on me.  I felt that those moments of pain, difficulty and mistakes needed to be shared too.  It helps to show just how much grace, love and protection God gives to His children.   

My struggles with infertility are not a secret.  Being married 12 years, I feel that others look at me and think “she must have really done something bad” or “God hasn’t done it yet so give up”.  But this post isn’t really about that.  Today, I want to encourage those of you who are waiting on a “YES”.  For me, I am yet believing God for my husband and I to get a “YES” on a pregnancy test and share the news with family and friends who have been praying and believing with us.  For others, you may be looking for a job or promotion, looking for approval on a new home, waiting for God to send you a godly spouse.  Whatever you are waiting on, I admonish you not to give up hope. 

Whenever I get discouraged, I quote a saying from the cover of one of my journals “Trusting God means Trusting in His Timing”.  Wow!  That’s pretty powerful.  There’s  a song that I love to listen to as well titled “More Than You Think I Am”.  The song speaks to how we don’t fully understand God’s love for us.  This song speaks volume because I use to think of my “waiting” as punishment when the truth is, God will withhold NO good thing from us (Psalm 84:11).  So when thoughts of doubt creep in, I have to rebuke them and regain focus, knowing the TRUTH about my Heavenly Father and His love for me.

Here are a few tips that help me:

1.       While you’re waiting, work.  God has purpose for you.  Find yourself busy doing what God has called you to do. 

2.       Journal along the way.  Write about your ups and downs and how you gained strength to keep believing.

3.       Surround yourself with strong believers.  It’s important to have those around you who will pray and believe with you and offer words of encouragement when you may feel weak.

4.       Fast and Pray.  There are times when you need to just set aside some time with God so that you can recharge and be revived.  It’s important that while waiting, you can hear God clearly.

5.       Watch what’s feeding you.  This is key.  You have to be careful what you’re watching and listening to.  There have been certain movies and TV shows that  I’ve watched and they left me in a funk, feeling sad and all in my feelings.  Same with music.

6.       Find scriptures that you can lean on when you need encouragement. I have a few favorites.  My number one scripture is Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know that thoughts I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end”.

I pray that this blesses someone.  Do me a favor, be sure to share your testimony with me when God blesses you with what you have been believing Him for.

Love Yall!